Up and Down

Between God and me
Lies a thin line
Of doubt and love
Uncertainty divine

My chest beats raw
From all the knots
Inside my tangled heart
I don’t know how to move

This air that I breathe
Carries memories
I taste them

There will be Heaven
Even if I die
But today
I breathe.


If It Fits

And I still don’t quite know

How all the pieces fit

Though in the end

My feet do trod the wet earth

Taking me elsewhere from where I began

A little bit closer to my sandy shore

Listening to the sea’s gentle lullaby

Caught between heaven and a wave.

Midnight Beat

I drum the beat of midnight
Caught in the twinkle of a star
A secret whispered in darkened veil
For those who live and love
Stay the simple truths for a piece of warmth

These growing pains nurtured sweetly
Tear my skin indifferent
You stole the air I so desire
With but a look of golden amber
Each breath I’m learning a new language, see?

But I won’t fall, I won’t drown
My thoughts scattered, this pain forgotten
The jutting sun crests my horizon
Will this light save the devil in me?
I wait and see
Wait and see
Wait and see

Pieces Missing

Remember when we used to laugh?
It was all frolick and play,
not a worry under the blue sky.
Now I find myself trapped in an iron maiden of my own neglect.
Counting the seconds, filling the hours, in the dark of night.
Fearful of waking up to find my heart shriveled and old,
though my skin’s still taut and smooth.
Every word I utter falls dead to an empty auditorium,
nobody there to even throw much-welcomed scorn.
I scream with lips gently sealed, waves of grief crash uselessly against them.
No one shall know how deep the void scratches the frayed and tattered remnants of my soul.