A Writer’s inspiration

This writer writhes within their cocoon
of anxiety and uncertainty
how tight their bonds
biting hungrily into their flesh
they want to be seen
fed by the applause of an invisible audience
feel that its skin is not a waste
but how can they keep the twin beasts
of Doubt and Shame at bay?
Rejection is ever looming
threatening to shut their soul
until it withers within itself
death by silence
the writer is alone
every day the mountain mocks
their efforts, their struggle, their hopes, their dreams
they try to climb to the top
one painful word at a time
often it makes them bleed
shivering from fear
the summit is so distant
but every day anew
the climb resumes
there is nothing else to be done
no other thing they would rather face
than the pain of writing
over the death of being silent
and so they write another page
hoping against hope
that tomorrow they will write another
and so on
so forth.

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On a lonely, wet street

Nothing makes me happy anymore
The rain pours down like spilled coffee
Trying to drown me in no hurry
While every inch of my soul is cold and wet

Traffic lights blink starlight in and out of existence
Their engines sound like chariots going to war
on some ancient field under the cover of night

I keep walking hiding from their prying gaze
receiving the baptism of an angry sky
wondering if I could simply fade in the rain
like a memory lost that no one will miss

The rain screams at no one in particular
and I keep walking down the lonely, wet street.

What holds me

I have become me
That holds no reason
I have become you
That knows no treason
I have become them
That knows no prison

Where do the hours go
when I am absent
in your thoughts?

If only there was sense
when you and I collide
but physics conspired against us
and left nothing but debris

what fools we were in youth
now aged what bigger fools
having learned to take the same road
over and over again

maybe tomorrow will be different
like every other day
that’s the struggle
that’s my victory.

Hang

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Fuck you
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